Do Love and Trust not go Hand in Hand?

The fact that he doesn't trust me annoys me. I'm a trustworthy person -- especially these days. Especially since he's the one I've put my mind to working hard..at.. [If that made Any sense at all.]

His ex girlfriend still loves him, or so she says, and he is apparently in love with me, and when I said we were kind of in a love triangle he flipped. Thought I was hiding something from him -- even though I've told him a billion times that I'm not. (And I'm not!) So it just angers me that I've given him absolutely no reason to not trust me, and he still can't change his state of mind.

It puts a strain on us, because as you can tell, I get angry when he doesn't trust me and I've done nothing wrong, lol. And when I get angry, I push away. For him, it's "okay nothing's wrong, I can move on." but to me.. He's still not trusted me, he's still assumed, and just.. Gr.

Since we're on the frustrated/angry topic, he contiually talks about his ex. The one that claims she is still in love with him. At one point, she attempted to give him an ultimatum -- "Me or her." and while choosing, he asked me "You're not going to hurt me are you?" once I found out what happened, I took it like this: "I'm going to choose you, but if you hurt me, I may as well have chosen her. The one who's cheated on me and ruined my trust for every female."

She's in his life .. I can accept this. I could accept if they were best friends, [though they're not] and I could accept if they wanted to hang out. [though that doesn't usually hapen on good terms that I know of] What I can't wrap my head around, is the fact that he says so many bad things about her, says she means nothing to him, and yet has trouble deciding who to choose, the fact that he talks to her every day, the fact he cares so much about her being mad at him.

My guess? He's not 100% over her. Regardless of how much somebody hurt you, it is still possible to continue loving them. But, I don't know, maybe he's just really weird. I just wish, that if he isn't over her, he'd tell me. I wouldn't get jealous or anything of the sort - I know how it feels. I'd want to be there for him .. Perhaps not romantically anymore though.

I just want him... to be honest. but I understand if he doesn't know what the truth is at this point in his life -- maybe then, I could be part of his thought process? I dunno. Maybe I'm asking for too much. it hasn't been a month yet. course then you have the debate of, it hasn't even been a month and he says he loves me.

Anyway. Lol. That's my rant for now.

Have a beautiful day!